He was happy to just snuggle up with Miss Courtney and hang out for the day. I was happy to get out in the beautiful sunshine, have my first red cup of the season, a skinny peppermint mocha, and go, go, go. It was a win, win for both of us. A nice day indeed.
The other big change was I got my hair cut. I am a little unsure about it but I was desperate for a change and well, it’s definitely shorter in the back but I still have the angle cut in the front. I don’t know. I don’t think it’s enough change. I think I may just go really short for awhile. Maybe a pixie? I just feel so old and tired in the hair department.Thoughts?
Of course there was also snuggling with Miss Courtney. She had a really rough afternoon suffering through several very hard grand mal siezures. They come out of the blue these days and boy do they wipe my sweet girl out. To hold her through them and comfort her after them is such a privilege for me. I just whisper prayers over her and hope for all of it to stop.
At times, especially when she stops breathing for those 10-15 seconds, I will even beg God to just make it all stop, to end her suffering and bring her home to Him.
I know, what mother does that?! This mother who is tired of watching her daughter fight so damn hard to breathe. It just hurts more some days than others. This afternoon was one of those times. I just keep reminding myself that God is in control of this train and my girl still has work to do.