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the privilege of holding her…

9 Jan

It has been a difficult day here.


Miss Courtney is in quite a pit of discomfort due to her monthly “visitor”. She is very out of sorts and can’t make up her mind if she want to eat or not, wether she wants to lay down or sit in her chair. I have  given her some meds to help with her discomfort but they sometimes upset her tummy, which puts her out of sorts once more.


What’s a Mama to do?


I wrap her up in comfy blankets and I hold her. It’s quite a comical site really.  A 5’10” Mama holding a 5’6″ young woman, rocking her back and forth quietly while singing softly. Courtney’s legs dangly over the edge of the sofa, her feet warmly wrapped in Miss Elizabeth’s special wool socks, breathing in and out so quietly.


It seems to be the only way to get her to relax and just be still for a bit.


As I rock her, I sing. When she tires of that, I pray and my mind strays reaching for quiet and peace. It is such a privilege to hold this special one. For twenty-one years I have rocked this child, on good days and bad. While seizures steal through her body and after they are through wringing her out. When she was happy or in pain, giggling or exhausted, she and I have rocked.


I know that one day my arms will be empty and my sweet girl will be rocked by Our Lady in Heaven.


For today, I set aside all that I think must be done and I rock my Courtney.

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  1. Beth (A Mom's Life) says

    January 9, 2014 at 9:12 pm

    Prayers for you and Courtney. Enjoy your rocking time!

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  2. jen says

    January 9, 2014 at 9:29 pm

    beautiful.

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  3. jen says

    January 9, 2014 at 9:31 pm

    beautiful.

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  4. Catherine says

    January 9, 2014 at 11:15 pm

    Not comical at all…you are the vessel through whom Christ is loving Courtney. I agree with Jen- beautiful.

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  5. Hafsa says

    January 10, 2014 at 3:05 am

    The image you describe is far from comical. It warmed my heart and put a smile on my face.

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  6. Iris Hanlin - Writer/Photographer says

    January 10, 2014 at 4:14 am

    This is really beautiful and sweet, Mary. Bless you both. <3

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  7. katherine johnson says

    January 10, 2014 at 5:30 am

    love this, everything about it

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  8. Bonnie says

    January 10, 2014 at 11:38 pm

    This was so beautiful, Mary. I'm grateful that you write about your life with Courtney and show us how hard and how sweet it all is.

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