We just dropped Jonathan off with his ride back to school.
It was different this time, more difficult for me than in August. God has been really pushing me to trust in His provisions for Jonathan. He has been speaking deep in my heart to cut the apron strings completely and give my son over to Him.
I have to say, I am struggling with this.
I was feeling very positive about his return to school as was he.
Jonathan was standing there, with a wide grin and a light heart ready to begin the next adventure in his life. I knew I had to walk away. So with tears in my eyes, I let him go again, my heart breaking as he drove away.
For young men, that’s not very often, so I need to be ready when he is. This is the part no one tells you about. This emptiness in the pit of your stomach or the sadness in your heart. God needing you to walk away and trust.
Cutting the apron strings completely this time, with a prayer to Jonathan’s guardian angel, I will let go…and let God lead him where he needs to be. I know that he is not alone in this journey and neither am I.
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